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A couple of weeks ago I hit a wall.  I started doubting why I was writing on this blog and berating myself for what I was writing.  “Who cares about this stuff anyway?”  “Aren’t there other things you should be doing with your time?”  “Why do you think your opinions matter?”

It wasn’t pretty.  It was a full-fledged pity-party with an attendance of one.

Then, in short order, three pretty amazing things happened.

First, I had an incredible evening with a good friend of mine.  The kind of friend who won’t just say the words you want to hear, she’ll also say the words you need to hear.  I lamented my situation and boo-hooed a bit on how I think my writing is crap and why am I doing this and blah, blah, blah.  She looked me in the eye and said “I like reading it” as though it was the most simple thing in the world.  And suddenly it was.  At the very least, if my putting some crazy little stories out there in the world make two people smile (i.e. me and her) then what more can I really ask for?  Shut up and keep writing.  I get it.

Second, a few days later I got an award.  Yep, a full-fledged, honest to goodness award.  A lovely award, to be exact.

The wonderful blogger over at “Shoes On the Wrong Feet” passed this award along and mentioned my little blog on hers and I was blown away.  I am a regular reader of her blog and was scrolling through her post last week only to be shocked by the sight of a link to The Polka Dot Palace.  I have to admit, it actually took me a few seconds to clue in that she was talking about me.  Wow.  People actually read this; and a few of them even like it enough to keep reading it.  Mind blowing and totally amazing.   I will pass the award on to five of my favourite bloggers in an upcoming post, to keep the ‘amazingness’ moving forward but for now I will simply say thank you.

And third, as proof that the stars were aligned last week or something, the day after I received my award, this post arrived in my inbox.  The title “You Are Amazing” jumped out at me and I felt like it was written just for me – it was exactly what I needed to hear, during that week of all weeks, when I was trying to drag my self-esteem out of the gutter and not doing a very good job of it on my own.

And that was it, the trifecta of amazing things that the universe sent my way when I needed them the most.  One from a person that knows me better than almost anyone and two others from people I’ve never met.  So a big thank-you to each of them, and to the universe for sending them my way.  There’s now a smile back on my face, inspiration back in my heart and my keys are back on the keyboard.

And I’ll shut up and keep writing.

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